let me explain the not quite geek thing. I play video games for enjoyment, i don’t mod my games and i don’t know all the Easter eggs. i know pretty much nothing about technology or new gadgets. my consoles currently consist of a ps3, wii and a Gamecube id love new gen but i’m poor, like super poor i mean i can afford food and a trip to cex once a month but that’s my lot? I spend most of my time cramming in as many episodes of tv shows/anime as i can, playing RPGs or sewing cosplays i’ll never wear. my house isn’t riddled with in box figures or things like that (I wish it was). The thing that draws me to geek is the fact you can bring up a current interest and i get all giddy and can discuss for hours.
Which brings me to my current obsession, I’m not kidding here either i am one step away from reading teenage fanfic over theories and that worries me massively. I’m not level headed person in the slightest but this is stupid. i feel like a 13 year old girl crushing on a boyband -.- in all honesty it could be worse i know i cannot be alone in this. you’ve all had this don’t lie!! being frank i think my new love affair could have been worse its from a franchise that has sparked emotions in people from the first showing in 77 and now with the new release of the force awakens I’ve been thrown into the body of a teenage boy seeing Carrie Fisher for the first time.
i was pretty slow on the Star Wars thing i’m only 25 and didn’t exactly grow up in an area it was ok to be different. i didn’t get on with my parents at all so i rebelled and got drunk all the time. which may actually explain this. Now i am stalling you all know whom i am talking about if anyone has actually read this… wow.
Kylo Ren, there it is i admitted it. I have a consuming obsession with the moody, rebellious luscious haired Kylo Ren, and why wouldn’t I. So the broken Ben solo has stolen many hearts than mine, I’m sure it cant just all be about Po and Fin. really not sure where to go from here. i was curious when the teaser trailers where released and defended that cross guard till my dying breath and now I know I was right to. Anyone who has seen the film felt the surge and pulse in the chest when his saber was unsheathed for the first time, that raw anger when he hears about Rey. That was it for me, I was there it was too late even if what happens later was devastating! He embodies everything I wish I could have been/done as a teen (well apart from the death, ok maybe a little death) hes impulsive and rebellious and strong and handsome and ambitious and oh lord I could go on… stop it your 25 dammit! dear Odin I wasn’t lying about this was I.
As i said things have been a little up and down for me and his is where i am going to pour all my shit that i cannot tell my friends and my husband just giggles at me and says sorry he isn’t unstable enough to *clears throat* well help in an adult manner….ahahah wow.
and there you have it my confession for the day.
Not quite geek 